Voices..worries...

"R u 2 dating?" "I love you" "Are u all a couple, is what i mean." "My gf will stay with me as long as am living." "Not my boyfriend. It's her boyfriend" "I miss you." "Dat's so sweet of you. That's one of the many reason I love you." "I dunno. Wait. What do you mean by dating?" "It's fate, u see. Angel and demon cant never be together." "Well i hope you know abt this if he ask you to be his girlfriend...cos you deserve to be with a guy who is faithful to one girl" "Dont ever say it's fate again." "You are simply wonderful." "Dont let facebook and friendster make you think nonsense k" "I love you too." "R u 2 official?" "You are everything dat I wan" "Why do you always go out with him? He has a gf, hasnt he?" "I'll not go over bound, neither should you. We'll be best ever best friend.though it will b hard,but our relationship will last 4ever!" "I dunno." "It hurts me 2say even a word bout we're just frens." "Will he treat you as how he treats his current gf when the both of you really get together?" "Love you..you know i really do."

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Oppss sorry...again...

I need to make a formal apology...
I know what I said sounds rude and mean... I apologize for that... I just couldnt control the 'volume' of those words and they sound really 'loud'...
Please forgive me... Am now trying hard to 'lower down the volume'... And am still learning... I do not know how to show my feelings and how much I care in a more 'soft spoken' way as I was brought up under this environment - they shout to show how much they care...

Sometimes I dont think I deserve you, you are too good... Am not only ordinary but also loud. Shame on me!!! that you have to put up with my temper and bad behaviour... I seriously think I dont deserve... Do I?

Am spoilt...

Am spoilt..Not by my parents, but by you..
'You' who are you?How should I call you? A friend? More than that? A date? A crush?

I dont hav to do the chores when you are around. Even when you came to our house for dinner, you would wash the dishes for me. Am afraid when you are gone, am bk to the maid life...

I use my brain less these days coz you will guess what I want to say, when I lost the words. Am kinda scared that I would suffer alzheimer's disease at young age when you are not around...

I dont hav to spend a penny when I am with you coz You hav never allowed me to pay when we go out. Am scared one day if I left my money at home, I would neet to beg for food, when you are not around.

You've made me a parasite. Keep taking from you, but never benefit you. You've made me a spoilt child. Am scared when you are gone, I will cry like a abandoned kid at a dark and cold corner...I can see the dark corner is coming near...

Wish that will never come true...

Few days ago was my big day. I gathered all my courage to make a wish. I was greedy enough to make a BIG wish that will not come true...



I wish you were the one,

I wish you were the last one,

I wish you were the right one,

I wish I didn’t have to soul search anymore,

Because you are the one I want.


This was my wish... a wish that will never come true...
하느님, I know I've asked too much from you, I know you are unlikely to grant me this burdday wish. I knew and I know...
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