The 1st month I came to this new place, I was assigned to teach level 8 & 9. I was the class teacher for level 8 and 2nd teacher for Level 9. It will be the same in next month.
It is a good news for me to teach level 9. Hopefully I'll have the same bach of lovely yet naughty students again. Although some of the students drive me up the wall, they are cute and I miss the class. I miss the student who always raised his hand and asked me to check his work. Asking me to why i didnt give him attention when other students interrupted his question. Students who always smiled and laughed at everything you said.
Today, I met a student who was from Level 8 in Feb. He asked me if I missed his class and him. He is still as naughty as the 1st time I saw him, cute as he always is.
What a coincidence, on the day I decided to leave, everything comes to as how it started
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
A uni Nanny
I thought leaving the language centre means I dont have to babysit any kids anymore. I didnt know, now I have to even babysit university students.
Today I have a new class, new students as it's a new term. I have a hyperactive student in my class. He's 25 but still acting like a kid, yeah, is the one who's famous for his line 'Teacher, why you no attention me?" When I glared at him to indicate him to be quiet, he pouted then walked to the back of the class.
The arabic students are afraid to be outshone by the iranians, so they made complaints at the office. Oh man, it was only the first day of class. And we were playing games. If you feel intimidated, try to outshine them.
In a way, it was my bad too. I should have controlled the class. It is my weakness. I dont know how to controll them, one of the students wrote in the feedback sheet.
I have to take care of their feelings. The weaker ones will annoy the strongers. I cant always wait till the weaker ones to fully understand the grammar rules. The good ones will be bored and annoyed, and yawned in front of me.
I always wonder how did Ms Evelyn do this? Balance the scale? Or were we too sane or are they insane? And they are too demanding. They seem will never understand there's no free lunch in this world. If you want to be promoted to a higher level, work hard. But 'hardworking' doesnt seem to appear in their lexicons.
Ended up we have to babysit them. To teach them from manner to grammar, then to a uni students who able to stand on their own feet.
Today I have a new class, new students as it's a new term. I have a hyperactive student in my class. He's 25 but still acting like a kid, yeah, is the one who's famous for his line 'Teacher, why you no attention me?" When I glared at him to indicate him to be quiet, he pouted then walked to the back of the class.
The arabic students are afraid to be outshone by the iranians, so they made complaints at the office. Oh man, it was only the first day of class. And we were playing games. If you feel intimidated, try to outshine them.
In a way, it was my bad too. I should have controlled the class. It is my weakness. I dont know how to controll them, one of the students wrote in the feedback sheet.
I have to take care of their feelings. The weaker ones will annoy the strongers. I cant always wait till the weaker ones to fully understand the grammar rules. The good ones will be bored and annoyed, and yawned in front of me.
I always wonder how did Ms Evelyn do this? Balance the scale? Or were we too sane or are they insane? And they are too demanding. They seem will never understand there's no free lunch in this world. If you want to be promoted to a higher level, work hard. But 'hardworking' doesnt seem to appear in their lexicons.
Ended up we have to babysit them. To teach them from manner to grammar, then to a uni students who able to stand on their own feet.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Even the iron lady is defeated this time.
They do not believe in you. They couldnt believe I am being treated like this - dumped, ignored yet I still stood by. What is the difference between my old grandma and I? Her husband bit her but she never leave him. He didnt work hard all his life, in fact he was always drunk thru out his life, she worked, toilled to support the family. There's no difference, it's all because of FAITH. I have faith in you But you kept me disappointed.
I've told myself before that I shouldn't care about who make the 1st move. If I truly fall for this person, I shouldnt care the previlege that a girl should have. It's 21st century, girls can take up boys' role. But in their heads, no matter how the world changes, girls should be treated like princess. And they kept injecting this to my head that I shouldnt deprive a girl's gift.
I have my own life, own principles that they will never understand. I dont care how the world sees me. I believe I should strive for what I want, so that when I was defeated, I would have no regrets at least I tried. However, we cant clap with just a hand. No matter how hard one party tries, the tune just wouldnt sound.
There are many words that I want to sing. But I always think of the consequences that it brings, and what result I want it to give. Negatives effects, I'll just swallow all of them. Positive effects, I'll make them into a melody. But these days, I couldnt differentiate them anymore. Have I not been manage my own thoughts lately? or I havent been playing the organ for a long time that I've forgotten how beautiful a melody can be.
I know the other hand is working hard too, perhaps. As I always say, busy is the word for a better future. Perhaps neither you nor I see the effects now. But who are you and who am I to object his hardworking. Hence, I choose to be the one supporting what you do quietly.
P.S Sorry mama, if this broke your heart again. I couldnt always live up to your expectation, I have my own life too.
I've told myself before that I shouldn't care about who make the 1st move. If I truly fall for this person, I shouldnt care the previlege that a girl should have. It's 21st century, girls can take up boys' role. But in their heads, no matter how the world changes, girls should be treated like princess. And they kept injecting this to my head that I shouldnt deprive a girl's gift.
I have my own life, own principles that they will never understand. I dont care how the world sees me. I believe I should strive for what I want, so that when I was defeated, I would have no regrets at least I tried. However, we cant clap with just a hand. No matter how hard one party tries, the tune just wouldnt sound.
There are many words that I want to sing. But I always think of the consequences that it brings, and what result I want it to give. Negatives effects, I'll just swallow all of them. Positive effects, I'll make them into a melody. But these days, I couldnt differentiate them anymore. Have I not been manage my own thoughts lately? or I havent been playing the organ for a long time that I've forgotten how beautiful a melody can be.
I know the other hand is working hard too, perhaps. As I always say, busy is the word for a better future. Perhaps neither you nor I see the effects now. But who are you and who am I to object his hardworking. Hence, I choose to be the one supporting what you do quietly.
P.S Sorry mama, if this broke your heart again. I couldnt always live up to your expectation, I have my own life too.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Same old SH*T happening again...
After so many years, the same old Sh*t happening again. I totally have confidence in you. Why do you want to say sth like that to shake my confidence. Well, I definitely understand that you just want to wake me up from this ignorance that I fall in.
I kept looking for reasons, excuses for you. I understand that we need time. We are both still young. We need time for our own. But they dont see it. They dont understand how we live.
All the sudden, their words recall some memories in the past. They are just being protective. They are just afraid I will be hurt again, waiting for something that will not blossom.
You shook me, scolding me that I should stop being silly again, said I should have learnt from the mistake. I am hurt that you dont see what I believe in. I am sad that I did not protect you enough. I am falling because I am falling deep and hard again.
I kept looking for reasons, excuses for you. I understand that we need time. We are both still young. We need time for our own. But they dont see it. They dont understand how we live.
All the sudden, their words recall some memories in the past. They are just being protective. They are just afraid I will be hurt again, waiting for something that will not blossom.
You shook me, scolding me that I should stop being silly again, said I should have learnt from the mistake. I am hurt that you dont see what I believe in. I am sad that I did not protect you enough. I am falling because I am falling deep and hard again.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Immatured 24s
Having letting the 1st class off early has made me wanna bang my head to the beancurd. How could I have been cheated by my students when there was still 15mins more?
The next class, I made them speak. Today is friday, the duration of the class is shortened from 2hrs to 1 and a half hr. After 45mins, the kids were complaining that they are tired. They wanted to be off early. Having listening to their trumpets for 3 consecutive days, I wouldnt tolerate this time. "You can leave after you found me, 20 synonyms for the word 'BIG'" Some of them started looking up the dictionary while I continue with the presentation of the rest of the students. One of the 24s "Teacher, I've finished." I walked to him "Are there 20 here? There are only 15" He said he cant. I walked off without speaking word. 15mins before class ends, while a 17yrs old Indonasian kid, found 20 but with 1 repeated, I asked him look for another one, the rest of the class was shouting it was time to go.
I said "I've been letting you off early for the past three days, cant you just co-operate with me just for once?" I could see some of them were shocked, 2 of them sneaked out and some of them nodded, one of them gave me a warm smile. I said "you either find me the 20 synonyms or you go to see Ms Adeline (the director of education) if you want to leave early"
By 6pm - "Class dismissed, thank you for your co-operation. See you next week." The afraid ones quickly came to explain they didnt know what the 20 words I asked them to look for and helped me to erase the board. The dramatic scene of the whole evening was the 24yrs old Iranian closed his book hardly and shouted "I've already found 20" while the 17yrs old Indon happily said "yeah, finally I found 20"
When I claimed you are just children to me, you claimed you are older than me? Which part of you show you are older? Your limbs? Com'on act like an adult, man...
The next class, I made them speak. Today is friday, the duration of the class is shortened from 2hrs to 1 and a half hr. After 45mins, the kids were complaining that they are tired. They wanted to be off early. Having listening to their trumpets for 3 consecutive days, I wouldnt tolerate this time. "You can leave after you found me, 20 synonyms for the word 'BIG'" Some of them started looking up the dictionary while I continue with the presentation of the rest of the students. One of the 24s "Teacher, I've finished." I walked to him "Are there 20 here? There are only 15" He said he cant. I walked off without speaking word. 15mins before class ends, while a 17yrs old Indonasian kid, found 20 but with 1 repeated, I asked him look for another one, the rest of the class was shouting it was time to go.
I said "I've been letting you off early for the past three days, cant you just co-operate with me just for once?" I could see some of them were shocked, 2 of them sneaked out and some of them nodded, one of them gave me a warm smile. I said "you either find me the 20 synonyms or you go to see Ms Adeline (the director of education) if you want to leave early"
By 6pm - "Class dismissed, thank you for your co-operation. See you next week." The afraid ones quickly came to explain they didnt know what the 20 words I asked them to look for and helped me to erase the board. The dramatic scene of the whole evening was the 24yrs old Iranian closed his book hardly and shouted "I've already found 20" while the 17yrs old Indon happily said "yeah, finally I found 20"
When I claimed you are just children to me, you claimed you are older than me? Which part of you show you are older? Your limbs? Com'on act like an adult, man...
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I'm missing you...
It's fun spending hrs looking at you while you are working.
I love to be around you.
I know the work is tiring.
I know I shouldnt walk in on you, you need rest.
I know.
I'm working in a new environment.
It's just like going to a new school after a long holiday.
I'm afraid. Am an introvert, remember?
I know you want me to be strong.
Hence, I seek for courage from you.
I cant withdraw my eyes from you.
You are so adorable.
When you are here, nothing matters to me.
I make time to go see you, while I know I shouldnt be disturbing.
Behind the stubborness, I always feel guilty
For grabbing your rest time
But I just couldnt help
I'm obsess with you
I love to be around you.
I know the work is tiring.
I know I shouldnt walk in on you, you need rest.
I know.
I'm working in a new environment.
It's just like going to a new school after a long holiday.
I'm afraid. Am an introvert, remember?
I know you want me to be strong.
Hence, I seek for courage from you.
I cant withdraw my eyes from you.
You are so adorable.
When you are here, nothing matters to me.
I make time to go see you, while I know I shouldnt be disturbing.
Behind the stubborness, I always feel guilty
For grabbing your rest time
But I just couldnt help
I'm obsess with you
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Stronger or weaker
Stronger, You force me to...
Weaker, you make me to...
Because I know the only way to survive if I want to live with you, I have to be stronger. Meanwhile, you make me weaker, Uncertainties, flooded my mind. You are vague, you look uncertained. You seem to have many plans in mind, You wish to fly high. I'll just have to wait for the final decision...sentence...
Weaker, you make me to...
Because I know the only way to survive if I want to live with you, I have to be stronger. Meanwhile, you make me weaker, Uncertainties, flooded my mind. You are vague, you look uncertained. You seem to have many plans in mind, You wish to fly high. I'll just have to wait for the final decision...sentence...
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