Lord, What should I do?

I miss this person so much that I dont even dare to call him and let him know. Neither do I dare, just to drop a message on his MSN. If you dont love me anymore, then why don't you tell that straight to my face. Why did you vegetablelize me, terminate me with this suffocation? I have never, never thought you are a cruel, cruel man. Every minute I tried to prove that I was wrong, but every second you try you wreck it. Just tell me what you want, and I will be disappeared.