A Crying Baby

I have never thought my existence will be a trouble to you...
that you have to go deal all the hardship I put you through, that you have to accept all the sneers that they gave you....all the blames they pin on you...

I have never thought my sudden visit would be an annoyance to you...
that you have to stop whatever you are doing in order to entertain me, that you have to accompany me till my business is done, that you have to sacrifice your precious hours on me...

There are lots more things that I have never thought of...
that I need you so much, that you are what I treasure most, you are what I believe in...

To hope or not to hope

When you are very in love with s1,you would want to spend 24-7 with that person...You would even want to create a heaven of you two together....and you would say 'I want to be with you for the rest of my life'...that's why you both made a move and proceeded, and you both gave each other a wonderful gift HE gave you...

However, Life is always unpredictable. This second you are deep in love with her, the next second you might be crazy over him...so what does the vow that you made suppose to mean, which you said you want to buit a heaven and walk the path with that person?

I totally understand, everything that was said while the two persons were in fire WAS true, but the promise was only 'valid' for that time being...No one can guarantee any1 could be together forever...I know that very well...yet I still feel sad what is wished for, cant be realized..

So is not making any promises the good way to keep a relationship goes on, as there's no disappoinment if there isnt a hope? Not to me... I will still hope... if there isnt a hope, our life will be like the water flows in the river, we doesnt know where it will go, where it will stop at or when it will stop flowing. And is it because we try to take control over it and we want to mould the future that we are thrown by some visible and invisible problems?

Some ppl always say when we come we come alone, with nothing, so when we go bk we go back alone and with nothing too...dont try to own so many thing in life...live a simple life...

p.s any1 if wanna shoot me...just feel free to shoot...

life is filled with sad things lately...

o que significa

o que significa quando as coisas não começ melhor do que antes?

quando se não ousar mesmo dizer a seus amigos que está em um relacionamento?
a única explanação que você se deu é... ele é tímida

quando tiver muitas borboletas cerca-o...e está feliz? e é orgulhoso dele?
a única razão que você se deu é... você é afortunada que você é esse escolhe

quando flertar abertamente...
tudo que você pode fazer é somente relógio e olhar fixo...quietamente...

e a suas altas respostas?
tudo que você poderia fazer é pode somente fechar um olho e abrir um olho...

que ele todos os meios quando você puder somente manter o silêncio, for ignorante, engole todo seu descontentamento? quando você actuou autístico outra vez?
você foi insano…

somos pesarosos

It's complicated

The relationship of all things in life is complicated from the beginning.

It's hard, from the starts, I know when I decided to make the move.
It's going to be hard, I know when I took up the role.
There'll be lots of questions, I'll drown,
I know, and I should be prepared.
We will be fine, that's what I hope.
We will be great, that's what I wish.

Basically, I dont know what I want to blog... there are so much things I wanna say but I dont know how to put them in sentence. There are so much doubts I wanna make clear of, but I dont know where to start. There are so many questions I wanna ask, but I dont know who to ask. There are so many empty places I should fill with a full-stop, but I dont know why I should stop. There are many times I wanna run away, but I dont know Why I should run, Where I should hide, Who exactly I wanna run away from and What should I do after running away.

and that's why, am still stucked here, cracking my head, crying in the pillow for a reason. Or no reason.

이것은 생활이다...그리고 이것은 복잡합니다...

compression

s1 reached my limit...

sitting in some kind of direct sales meeting, bored to the max and it's killing me...I know it's rude to sms while sby giving a speech, coz what i showed i didnt respect the speaker. I do not need any1 of you to remind me of that, i know it very well coz i used to give speech every week.

However, I couldnt stop myself from not doing that. I needed to divert my frustration and transform my impatience to other form of energy, so that i would not walk off when s1 is sharing his or her achievement of the month on the stage. That would be even rude, if I did that. I sat quietly, kept reminding myself that take it as another usual toastmaster meeting at uni. And, I managed to sit till the last minute of the meeting.

It was suppose to be a happy meeting, where every1 celebrated their fellow colleagues's success. And I was supposed to cherish with my two other old friends, who hav achieved their goal in the business. I am happy for them.

I know they like this business so much, I know you see your future in it. I will not stop you from pursuing your dream, but do not force me to pursue the dream that you long for as it is not my dream. I appreciate the energy and the motivation you have, I will borrow them to build my career too, but do not force me to use those positive energy to do something that I do not like...and made me sat in the test of testing my patience, that was the most painful part of knowing you...

the lesson of talking in life...

Some people just wanna talk...communication allows us to exchange information...

in order to communicate they could talk bad about ppl...as an information to exchange with other, just to get a change to speak to that person...

Some people, would just talk something which doesnt make a point, coz they just wanna talk, to feel their existence..

Some people just want to share their joy and they talk like a chatterbox, but they do not realize what they said hurt you... and finally they found out what they said was stupid...

Sometimes it is annoying that when you have to listen to all the things that they had to say, but we need s1 who talk like these in life, so that the things, that we want the world knows but which we do not feel like talking bout it, is spread...And sth we need and are supposed to know will reach our eardrums... It's contradicting I know...

But lately I just feel I hav had enough of all these, when s1 trying to prove the existence of oneself keeps talking like a fly... stop making anymore 'noise', you fly!!!!!!!!! you got 'mouth - diarrhoea'???!!!!

*piak~~~~~

slipping away...

I wonder what was I doing,
Doing nothing, looking at everyone grabbing their chance...
I stood there, letting my chance slipping away...

I should have looked for it,
Should have grabbed it...
And I could have just done the same thing as others
But I just let it slipped away...

It's the 1st time I feel the word 'sorry'
is never enough...
Coz I cant turn back the time,
Something that I would regret
And I made them regret
Coz I just let it go like this...
Something that we had waited so long.